If Anyone/Need
Ellie Gianassi
If Anyone
god, if anyone just happens
to look through my eyes in the window,
recognize and remember this
red headed red face
of tears and storm clouds
of sun and empathy
of self-stitched scars and wildflowers
i don’t know how they’d feel,
but I hope I could at least gift them a smile
for now, this soft ridged porcelain will do
come see me spend my lowly days
calmly crying in my ashtray
Need
when i cling to the lighter in my palm,
i can feel warmth again
if I make this journey,
I need to instead cling to you
then I can always come home
subtlety and silence is the game I play
little words, pure intention only I know
but after every charade,
after every cool blue moonlight
it’s still vulnerable to you
can feel just as I and you
so i need you to answer me
In the most subtle, the most silent,
and the most beautiful way possible:
Do you still need me?